The thing about OCD that’s annoying is that thinking makes it way worse! For normal people, it can be a good idea to “work through” your problems. With OCD, the working through part of you is the part that’s damaged. You do completely irrational things to try to banish completely irrational fears, and the more you think about them, the more you think that they actually are rational.
It was that epiphany that helped yesterday. Giving myself permission to stop fixing myself.
And today is much better already. Better enough that I think I’ll go on and show you guys that book cover I obsessed over Sunday night. (This is version number eight. There are about fourteen versions total, but this is the one I would have stopped at if I hadn’t been going a little bit crazy.) I’m taking my time with edits on this book. It’s a bonus book, and I don’t know when it will come out yet, but probably some time in June.
I’m still in Helicon today, but I’ve got some other stuff I’m working on as well. (Too many cool ideas! Argh!)
Thanks for putting up with my crazy self. 🙂